Then I got an email that crushed my dreams. One of my career dreams was to work for Invisible Children. Their goal and how they go about to right a wrong was something that I grew incredibly passionate about. Getting awareness and putting it into action was something that I was hoping to accomplish with my degree, in hopes of one day working for this organization that I fell in love with.
This email said that Invisible Children would be slowly shutting it's doors by the end of this year. My dream got doors slammed on it. Crushed. Let go.
This can't be a dream of mine any longer. There is no feasible chance of this dream coming to fruition for me. My heart is crushed along with my dreams of my career. I understand that this is business and that this is how the corporate life works. Things grow and grow and then they die. That's the circle of life, right?
So what does this mean for me and MY dreams? What about me? But this is the wrong question. If I go into thinking that my dreams are about me, I have it wrong to begin with. When I first read this news, my first thought was, "Man-- this screws up my plans".
By no means am I saying that we serve a God who is out there to crush dreams and destroy plans, but I am saying that we serve a God who has a plan, and it is an honor to be able to be a part of that plan (even though that means that my dreams might not come to fruition).
So as I processed the fact that my dream job no longer exists, I turned to God in all of this. "Give me new dreams!" I screamed in my head as I type this in an airport. I long for God's plan to be my plan. I dream for my plan to be as selfless as God's plan, no matter where that would lead me.
I want my dreams to be glorifying to Him no matter what. So I reflect on my plans and how God can form my heart to make my plans look a little more selfless and more glorifying to Him, because without that- I am nothing.
"Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us" Ephesians 3:20